{"id":53,"date":"2025-08-22T10:03:22","date_gmt":"2025-08-22T03:03:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/?p=53"},"modified":"2025-09-07T18:21:54","modified_gmt":"2025-09-07T11:21:54","slug":"belladonna-lips","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/2025\/08\/22\/belladonna-lips\/","title":{"rendered":"Belladonna Lips"},"content":{"rendered":"

BELLADONNA LIPS<\/a><\/h1>\n

a tinge of dust that shined<\/span><\/p>\n

swimming under your spell<\/span><\/p>\n

beyond your bitter mind\u2013<\/span><\/p>\n

i dwell<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

a touch so tender it kills<\/span><\/p>\n

as we lay by the night\u2019s chill<\/span><\/p>\n

feeling the spirited thrill\u2013<\/span><\/p>\n

i\u2019m ill<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

your poisonous lips<\/b><\/p>\n

spoiled honey drips<\/b><\/p>\n

forbidden words slips<\/b><\/p>\n

my hurt heart dips<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

picking the shards<\/span><\/p>\n

from your <\/span>rose<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

fine\u2013<\/span><\/p>\n

i\u2019ll play the cards<\/span><\/p>\n

so don\u2019t doze<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

my eyes won\u2019t catch your dust of poison again<\/span><\/p>\n

i won\u2019t drift under your control,<\/span><\/p>\n

walk behind the message you send<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

remember when you kissed me?<\/span><\/p>\n

i’ll spread crushed belladonna on my lips<\/span><\/p>\n

next time you see me<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Published in Vellichor Literary <\/strong><\/a>for the anthology Issue Demeter\u2019s Garden<\/span><\/i><\/a><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

All right, this one has a long story behind it!<\/p>\n

Small fun fact: this poem actually comes from an excerpt of ANOTHER drafted poem I wrote in my notebook the beginning of my University’s orientation. The excerpt is the third stanza. I remember writing the first and second stanza, feeling like something was missing out… Then I took a quick scroll through my notebook to find that perfect stanza that can align well. (Oh my God, how many times did I mention stanza<\/em> just now?) Continuing it, though? I was left stuck again. I didn’t know where to continue. All I knew was the initial premise was how the lover of this persona is toxic… Then came up Belladonna<\/em> as the imagery and visual. Yet, I didn’t know how to end it! I left it marinating in my Google Docs until, out of nowhere, my professor texted me that a Literary Magazine was opening for submission. (This is also how I got into the Lit Mag rabbit hole, btw, so shoutout to my professor.) After looking deep into it, I found out that four major Literary Magazines are collaborating to publish an anthology Issue, each magazine with its respective themes! It definitely caught my eye, and Vellichor’s theme struck me the most since their theme is literally Belladonna<\/em>. I told my professor that I’m going to submit for Vellichor, and started continuing where I left off.<\/p>\n

Right… How do I end this?<\/p>\n

You might notice that the last two stanzas feel off… That’s because it’s longer and more packed than the previous four ones. I admit, I was in a rush and I wrote what immediately came to mind, didn’t put much thought into them. Then I submitted.<\/p>\n

It was a long wait. A month pass by, and at this point, I already let go and stop having high hopes. Maybe I was right, the last two stanzas should be more polished and powerful, or maybe the voice or the tone wasn’t what they’re looking for. It came at one point where my student study program is holding Poetry Appreciation day, and I decided to just use this godforsaken poem to submit. But I changed up the last three stanza into two shorter ones… Which you can now look in DEVOTED DEVOTEE<\/a>! \ud83d\ude09 So, yes, I recycled Belladonna Lips so it can work for this particular submission, since I didn’t want the poem to be the same. Kept the first three stanzas, then changed the last three ones and retitled it into Devoted Devotee. Sadly, you can’t look it up anymore since I told the admin to delete that specific poem from the slide of the Instagram post… We’ll get to that later<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Another few months pass by, lo’ and behold, waking up early on 13 of March, I received a notification from my email.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

This was HUGE news since I just won a short story competition the day before. In my head, I kept repeating, “HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?” Because it truly felt magical. I never heard from them, then suddenly you receive this acceptance Email out of nowhere? But it’s not like I’m complaining. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

After receiving this great news, I told that same professor that I got in, and asked for his opinion if I should take down the recycled poem in the student’s study program. He said it was better to do so, because I barely know anything about recycling poem (he’s not wrong) and that it’s more important to prioritize the officially published piece. I contacted the admin and asked her to delete the slide… And what’s left is now the poems of other students, and also some from mine. You can look it up here<\/a>.<\/p>\n

That’s that not-so-little introduction or so-called backstory of this poem, and I hope I didn’t raise your expectation too much because I still lowkey hate this poem LOL.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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