{"id":144,"date":"2025-09-07T18:10:47","date_gmt":"2025-09-07T11:10:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/?p=144"},"modified":"2025-09-07T18:16:21","modified_gmt":"2025-09-07T11:16:21","slug":"familiar-gaze","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/2025\/09\/07\/familiar-gaze\/","title":{"rendered":"familiar gaze"},"content":{"rendered":"

FAMILIAR GAZE<\/h1>\n

That familiar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

Under the summer haze<\/span><\/p>\n

Sending me into a daze\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

What more can I say?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That familiar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

With that stupid face<\/span><\/p>\n

And that silly grin<\/span><\/p>\n

All my life, where have you been?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That familiar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve seen it before<\/span><\/p>\n

Day by day<\/span><\/p>\n

But now we\u2019re offshore<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That familiar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

But you looked away<\/span><\/p>\n

As the sun fades<\/span><\/p>\n

And the season changed<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That familiar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

Slipping thin from memory<\/span><\/p>\n

Your stupid face decayed<\/span><\/p>\n

No longer a reverie<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That unfamiliar gaze<\/span><\/p>\n

Turned bitter like that peach we tasted<\/span><\/p>\n

And my peach-stained hands still tainted<\/span><\/p>\n

With the image of us left in the patches of that pinkish tint<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Published in\u00a0Matcha Spill Magazine<\/strong><\/a> for their Mini Issue: SALTWATER SOLSTICE<\/a><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Stupid fun fact: this poem was inspired by a fanfiction I wrote in High School. (The fanfiction was about Will Graham if you’re curious. No. I won’t be showing it.) It has the same title and same “vibe”, the difference is that said “vibe” in the ending of this poem is depressing and non-existent in the fanfiction. You can imagine the first two stanzas as the premise of fanfiction, and the rest of the stanza is where I develop it into the finished product of the poem in 10 minutes before submitting to the magazine and going to bed. As usual, I worked on this last minute before submitting because I had no idea what to do with the theme. They actually provided prompts, which I incorporated at the end (peach-stained hands), but at that time, I didn’t have anything on my brain to work with.<\/p>\n

My writer’s block self decided to scroll down my Google Docs until, out of nowhere, I remembered writing a fanfiction in High School that could potentially work as a poem. That’s how “familiar gaze” was born (the poem, not the fanfiction).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

FAMILIAR GAZE That familiar gaze Under the summer haze Sending me into a daze\u2026 What more can I say?   That familiar gaze With that stupid face And that silly grin All my life, where have you been?   That familiar gaze I\u2019ve seen it before Day by day But now we\u2019re offshore   That […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":22420,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,8,19],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-144","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-english","category-poetry","category-published"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22420"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=144"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":146,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144\/revisions\/146"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=144"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=144"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.unpad.ac.id\/sabila24003\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=144"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}