Today I arrived back to Jatinangor. Maybe you wondered, why I went back too early? It’s not my intention, there was a problem with my scores.
Last Saturday, when I checked my score on Operation System subject, I was shocked. OMG what had I done so my score was so bad? I got 36 and 40 for my midterm test and final term test. My tasks, practical study, and quizzes score were but didn’t help both of my bad scores to make me got B grade. It was my first time experienced the feeling of having C grade. I cried for a while, but then when I asked some people there were some of them who got C grade too because of midterm test and final term test score. One of them was Eko. I was suggested to meet him face to face instead asking via Whatsapp. But after we discussed more, first we asked on Whatsapp then if we couldn’t change the grade we met the lecturer. Eko tried to message first on Sunday. Luckily he was replied and got B grade because the lecturer didn’t check properly. Then I messaged too. But because it was already night, the lecturer replied he would check tomorrow morning or it meant today morning. That’s why I came to Jatinangor today.
Arrived in Jatinangor, I got reply from the lecturer that almost all of my answers in midterm test and final term test were wrong. That’s why I got bad scores. OMG it was me who was dumb after all. But I didn’t give up. I would still meet him face to face. Alone. Because Eko already succeed getting a new grade. When I went to the lecturer’s office, I saw there were Rifqy, Rafid, and Rezy who wanted to recheck their Web Development score. Just info, the lecturer of Operation System subject and Web Development subject was same. Even though I was the only one who wanted to recheck my Operation System score, I was relieved I wasn’t the only one in the office. I had to wait for them rechecked their score. At that time I was given my midterm test and final term test answers paper from the lecturer. Well, as I said before, I was the dumb one here. All of my answers in the essay part were wrong when I checked them with the answers key. I was lucky I got some suggestions from Rifqy and Eko about how to get B grade by increasing my midterm test and final term test score. Finally I could get B grade with 68 as the final score. 68 was the least score range of B grade. Ah I didn’t care as long as I could get B grade. Thank God today the lecturer’s mood was very good. I thought I would get his anger if I asked to increase my score. If I could, I wanted to prostate in front of him. OMG I was so happy!
After that I went back to my temporary home. Damn, my toilet walls were covered with spiders web. I didn’t understand I only left for several days but it looked like I left for years. I also saw some dead worms on my floor. Ew. Luckily they were already dead. I couldn’t imagine if they were still alive.
Finally after waiting for a long time I could meet Senior Ojan again. We talked and played a lot. I even planned to go to IndonesiaNEXT seminar on January 18th and didn’t want to go home too fast before the guardianship. In Jatinangor I could use free WiFi as I wanted, not like in my home which was limited only in nights. I hoped I didn’t regret my choice for living in Jatinangor longer.
Poor me! Today is the worst day of 2018 so far. In the morning I felt after going to the toilet and then hit standing fan. After telling this to my dad, he was angry to my mom because he thought I felt after stepped on wet toilet floors. The toilet floors were covered with moss because my mom forgot to clean the toilet. He was also angry to me because I was dumb. Dear God, let me be strong of this accident.
In the afternoon while I took a nap, I got sleep paralysis because of bad dreams. I didn’t really remember about the dream but it was about some people who hated me were making tricks to disgrace me. I was lucky there was a teacher who defended me but I didn’t know why I still got sleep paralysis at that time. After waking up from the nightmare I couldn’t lift my body even my hand. My head was aching and I couldn’t take my favorite balsam to help me better. I was lucky the sleep paralysis wasn’t long. After getting some energies I took my Panadol pill and my favorite balsam to cure me but I couldn’t sleep again after that so I just rested on my bed to make me better.
And now, the worst of all, in the night I accidentally deleted all of my storage in my phone. As you can guess, ALL OF MY MEMORIES WERE GONE. So I’d already saved a lot of memories, because every six months I backed up my phone memories. But I didn’t know why, maybe just because I was unlucky today, my photos from camera and screenshots weren’t backed up. I thought I backed up everything because in my file history I could check that I backed up my photos from camera and screenshots, but yeah nothing was backed up from the last six months. I also lost all of my photos in LINE chats and only could save photos from the last two weeks. DAMN! It meant that all of my memories I made with some people I love in my third semester were lost.
OMG I WAS REALLY REALLY SAD AND COULDN’T HELP MYSELF TO CRY :((( Once again, I was so unlucky I couldn’t save my good memories. At first I’d already lost almost all of my best high school memories in my old phone and I still hoped I could save them in the future because I didn’t have any solutions again to get my memories back until now. And now almost all of my college life memories were lost. Why in the world I could have this problem? 🙁 I was thinking to use a software to recover my files but until now I still couldn’t find a good software which could recover all my files without anything left. Please, for this problem help me God! I know there are mortals but I didn’t want to forget those good memories for myself :(((
Yeah finally I go back to Jakarta today. Hello again my house! I miss how noisy my family and how messy my old room is. I also miss my mom’s homemade foods so I don’t have to eat more chickens again like in Jatinangor. This time I didn’t forget important things to bring like previous trip. But I was disappointed I went back too early to my home while some of my friends were still in Jatinangor.
Actually I had already planned to go back to Jakarta on December 23rd because I wanted to celebrate Christmas Eve with my family. But because there was a problem with 2015 and 2016 generation’s final term test which used Computer Based so the lecturer wanted to redo the test on December 31st. I was forced to celebrate Christmas Eve in a church in Bandung. Luckily there was Senior Yoan who accompanied me. It was my first time seeing her after I had my gloomy week. I told her the true story of my gloomy week and she gave me lot of messages that I should be strong and believe that there would be another good plans for me. The plan of redoing the test was cancelled just after I already celebrated Christmas Eve. Some of friends were lazy to go back home even after heard this announcement but different with me, I directly packed my things and prepared to go back to Jakarta in the next day or today in this story.
In Jatinangor, some of my friends were planning to have BBQ time and sleepover party. Ah I wished I didn’t go back today. It was no use I went back to Jakarta faster or not because the Christmas Eve was passed and my family was already celebrated it without me.
I also had two competitions projects to do in this holiday time. The first one was Technovation category in Arkavidia competition by Bandung Institute of Technology teamed with Eko and Zaenal. The second one was Game Development category in MAGE competition by Surabaya Institute of Technology teamed with Senior Rio and Senior Midun. I thought it was better if I made the project in Jatinangor because I really needed good internet connection. Ah it was my fault. I didn’t want to regret anymore but just want to enjoy my family time here.
Another final project was finished this semester. This time I will show off my Object Oriented Programming final project. I made an image gallery program with Shofiyyah, Raditya, Bebe, and Santo. Please kindly check my Github repository here for the raw codes and reports.
This photo above was the screenshot of my program. It was made with Java language and used Netbeans as the code editor. Simply, it was designed only with jLabel and jButton library as you can see below.
Ah if you asked why I used the Ciburuy site as the images, that was because all of the teams who took Object Oriented Programming subject were demanded to make a program that would be a feature for Ciburuy Desk. Ciburuy Desk was a desktop app about Ciburuy site on West Java and contained all of the teams’ programs including my team. We wasn’t the one who wanted to make image gallery. We got it because the lecturer demanded us. I didn’t really remember all features in Ciburuy Desk, I just remembered there were games, Sundanese translator, search engine, and image gallery like what we made.
I was so sorry if there was some of you couldn’t run the raw codes in my Github repository above because actually there was a bug I didn’t understand in the program. Some of people could run the program and the others couldn’t. I could run it in my laptop but Eko, who was in a team to gather all of the programs into an app, couldn’t run it so I gave him my old codes of the program which was really different than the fixed one for Ciburuy Desk. (The old codes were in Slideshow folder.) Please guys if somebody could help me fix the error, I would really appreciate it. The error message in the codes was: Exception in thread “AWT-EventQueue-0” java.lang.NullPointerException. Thank you for reading 🙂
This would be a great history for Christians of Informatics, a community of Christian people from Informatics Engineering Department in Padjadjaran University, because finally we could organize Retreat this year. Several days before I uploaded Imazine, I was asked by Senior Evita to join the committee for organizing the Retreat. I just had to make designs like the community official logo and the invitation letter. I couldn’t refuse but I was so sorry that I didn’t finish my job here. The logo I made was not good and I couldn’t make the invitation letter because I was still busy. Luckily the other committees were understand with my condition. They still welcomed to me. By the way, I didn’t really know the positions of every committees so I just mentioned them okay. There were Santo as the project officer, Senior Gilnus as the Christian of Informatics leader, Senior Eben as the steering committee (idk maybe it just because he was the oldest senior), Agnes, Benedict, Senior Evita, Senior Yoshe, and Senior Yemima.
I never went to the meeting because of my other business but on day-1 before the event, I finally could make it. In the meeting I was so jobless LOL. I even sang randomly with Agnes, Santo, Senior Gilnus, and Senior Eben while Senior Evita and Senior Yoshe were making the event rundown.
The next day, on December 8th 2017 we gathered on the afternoon and went together to the hostel. The night was already coming when we arrived so the girls were directly going to prepare the dinner. It was my first time cutting onions and this was really like a new life achievement for me. Just only a few tutorial and I was already becoming pro. There were nugget, satay, fried tofu, tempe, and fried mushroom served all in the carpet for our dinner.
After the dinner, we did a worship to Jesus and sharing time by the seniors. Maybe this year’s retreat wasn’t joined by all members of our community but at least there was one representation every generations. The sharing time was brought by Senior Edrick from 2012 generation, Senior Eben from 2013 generation, and Senior Leo from 2014 generation. They had their own unique past time and I almost couldn’t believe that my life was still better than them. Thank God you made my life beautiful and now I knew that You was always with me every time. Finally the sharing time finished and we had free time before sleep. We were playing Werewolf game three times. Every round had it own stories behind that and it became our precious memories even after the retreat was over. The girls were also taking photos together. Because there were only 5 of us so we were getting close easily.
The next morning, because almost everyone woke up late, the girls were directly preparing for the lunch. We served noodles, nugget, fried tofu, and tempe. After lunch we did a worship again and then we played games. The host of the games were Senior Evita and Senior Yoshe. There were many team games that we played. My team was lost but it was okay because everyone still looked happy. We took a silly photo together after that.
After that we were packing our luggage because we would go back to our places. Once again, we took a family photo again. Well, this time the photo looked better LOL.
And that’s how I ended this retreat. I hoped next year we could organize retreat again with more people joined and better activities!
I was shocked when suddenly Senior Midun wanted to meet him. He asked me to join him making PKM (Program Kreativitas Mahasiswa) or Students Creative Program with Senior Rio too. Actually I wanted to refuse it because I wasn’t interested in making PKM. At that time I also had a required project to make PKM for Entrepreneurship subject. But because Senior Midun said I just had to help him making designs I accepted it. Designing was already my passion for everything. Even though making PKM was still new for me, it’s okay I only did what I had to do.
Our PKM idea was in “Karsa Cipta” category. We will make an Android application about learning Sundanese old letters. For the proposal I only had to make the mock ups of the app as you can see below.
In the middle of making the proposal, I was asked to help them making the budget funds. I was very shocked when I heard that this PKM thing would make a lot of money if we could pass. I just knew why Senior Midun was really passionated making PKM as much as he wanted until he could pass. He never passed any PKM proposal and this time he really wanted to pass before he would graduate. It wasn’t necessary if we didn’t make the app as long as the fresh money was already on our hands. This project wasn’t like a competition that had to be showed off the app after being passed.
Finally after several days, today we uploaded the PKM proposal to the official PKM website. I hope this time Senior Midun will be lucky and I can be more interested of making PKM proposals later.
Today I just want to show off my Web Development final project. I did this with Shofiyyah and Fauzi. Actually the final look isn’t as what I expected like the mock ups. But I don’t care as long as the website can operate well.
Here is the screenshot of my team’s website homepage.
We made this website with HTML, CSS, and PHP languages. We also used CodeIgniter framework to make the connection to database. The features in this website are: authentication (sign in and sign up), error messages in signing, accounts profile (including member joining time), creating/updating/deleting article, and making comments on articles. You can check the raw codes in my Github repository here.
That’s it. I wish I have more free time to develop this website again so it will look better. We needed to add some important features like: forgot password, add photo to article, edit profile, tidy up the comment section, add settings, add featured posts on homepage, and many more. This time I only finished until there because tomorrow we will present the project for our Web Development practical study final score.
It was still in my gloomy week and I couldn’t smile again after being broken heart yesterday. On December 2nd until 3rd, the Great Deliberation IV of Himatif was held. In the venue I only focused to my web development project instead talked with some friends. Whenever I had to talk with friends I gave them my fake smile. I hate you guys, it wasn’t easy for me. But what could I do to them? They didn’t know my feelings right now.
The event went slowly but smooth. I thought it would be horror like I saw on last year. At that time, my department also didn’t have any big problem to be a long discussion with Himatif family. There were only small problems that even staffs could answer.
I liked the free foods served by the committees. It wasn’t bad for minimum budgets. They even had more foods left. I took two times for lunch. It’s not because I was hungry, it was Raihan who made my first lunch spilled off. At night, as same as last year’s, the committees didn’t give free foods again. So I went to McDonald’s in Cibiru just for eating ice cream LOL. Ice cream was really my stress cure.
Overall, on the first day of the Great Deliberation we were discussed all programs in relax with Himatif family. When the discuss was over, all Executive Board people could go back early.
The next day, or we could say today, I arrived very late to the venue. The Executive Board scoring was already over. My department got A grade with 80,75 as the final score. Each of my programs score were 68 for WoI, 77 for CIA, 88 for Imazine, and 90 for Impression. Beside that, my department became the 5 best departments in the Executive Board. What really a good news to hear!
I only came for a while today. After taking my free food I was planning to go somewhere but because Paquita and friends needed me to edit their Operation System project video, I couldn’t refuse it. While the Great Deliberation still continued, I helped them.
Today is the last day of my gloomy week and also the last day of me living in Senior Ojan’s temporary home. It’s not that I already forget the gloomy memories but as long as nobody reminds me, I will be okay and do activities as usual.
As the title above, this week is very sad for me. Actually I don’t want to remember this again so let’s begin this story and end it fast.
Alif was already elected to be the next Himatif leader. On the day I uploaded Imazine, he organized a generation forum to talk about pioneer team. It was a team that consisted some chosen people which could represent all of Cyber generation members. The team would collect some names for the next head of departments in Alif’s cabinet. There would be 8 people including Alif, also Malik and Intan as the generation leaders and Fauzi as the next vice leader of Himatif. Alif said if we wanted to become one of the team we could raise our hand. I was going to raise my hand but some people were pointing their friends and nobody raised hand. Those who were pointed mostly by the people were chosen. So I undid my intention to raise my hand. On the same time I got bad news from Senior Algif about the uploaded Imazine. I had to fix it as fast as possible. That was another reason why I didn’t interest anymore in the forum talks. After the team was made, the forum ended. At that time I didn’t know this would be my biggest regret ever.
Several days later, I got rumor that I won’t be chosen as the next head of media and information department. The team chose Rey instead of me. I was so angry and cried at the same time. My biggest dream to develop my lovely department was lost. I didn’t understand why they chose a new person for handling the department while there was already me who was ready to make changes in my own department. I was already experienced being a staff of media and information department in Impressive Cabinet and media department in Transformation Cabinet. It was already my specialty. But people were against me. Oh God please tell me if this was a dream.
I didn’t know what would I do if I didn’t get supports from Senior Ojan. I had to live for a week in his temporary home. I couldn’t sleep well even though I was tired crying. I couldn’t work well if I was still thinking about this bad news. I didn’t want to be alone at that time.
Days after that I got suggestions from him to talk about the head of media and information department face to face with Alif and Rey. (I still didn’t know that media and information department had been changed into bureau at that time.) Fortunately at that time Rey was also one of the pioneer team members so he should already know this plan too. On the last minutes before the team fixed the plan in generation forum, I talked with Alif, Rey, and Fauzi. Fauzi joined too because he was invited by Alif. I was a little relieved they wanted to hear my opinions. They was already thinking I could be the head of media and information department. But it wasn’t as smooth as I thought in the generation forum.
The agenda of the generation forum was fixing the head of departments for the next cabinet. All departments were mentioned one by one. And every head of the mentioned departments candidates should went away from the forum. I’d just known that media and information department had become bureau in this forum. And it got the last turn. The forum went good until media and information bureau’s turn. The candidates were Rey, Abie, and me. We had to went away as the others’ candidates before. I became worried when the forum took a long time for discussing the best person to become the head of media and information bureau. All departments before didn’t take more than 15 minutes to be discussed but this department took more than an hour! After that Rey, Abie, and me were called back. The forum couldn’t choose between Rey and me. When I was told by Niya about the forum I was very shocked. I never thought that Malik and Afifah were against me too much. That could be a long story if I told the story of the forum and I didn’t want to remember too. Shortly, In the end Alif and Fauzi had to stop the forum because if not there would be a war(?)
That day was also the day of Misiologi new cabinet appointment. But because of this unexpected event, I couldn’t go there. I even lied to Senior Yoan, who became the new head of literature division, that I had a family problem. Yeah maybe it wasn’t really a lie, this was my Himatif family problem. But still I was so sorry because this problem really fucked me up. I didn’t want to make more people worrying me so by telling that lie I hoped they would understand.
Actually after the forum was finished, Rey and me were asked to stay with Alif, Fauzi, and the new chosen head of departments to discuss again about the next head of media and information bureau. That’s why even though I was already wearing the dresscode for the appointment, I couldn’t come because I had to join this leaders forum. I hated to say this, but this forum wasn’t really different like the generation forum. After Rey and me telling why one of us should be the head of media and information bureau, we had to go away from the forum same as the previous forum. Another hour passed and the forum was closed without anyone chosen again. I was waiting for nothing there while I should be in the appointment instead. After that, I still couldn’t come back to my temporary home and live with Senior Ojan.
The next morning, or we could say today morning, Alif chatted Rey and me and announced that the chosen one was Rey. After that I cried and cried and my minds went blank. Senior Ojan was there comforting me that I was already being strong and brave until now. He also told me some stories that he heard from his friends. But because I was still shocked I couldn’t accept easily his words. Ah I didn’t want to continue telling these memories again BYE.
MIPA Mandiri was a talkshow about scholarship, entrepreneurship, and part-time working. The speakers were so many and I didn’t really remember their names. I was overslept and didn’t arrive on time to the venue of this event. Luckily I only had to stand by on the attendance desk as the secretary of the committee. It was a little boring because I was alone and couldn’t see the talkshow. When I got my rest time, I went to the venue and disguised as one of participants so I could see the talkshow. After the talkshow, there was entrepreneurship expo which were filled by Padjadjaran University’s students. I bought a lot of foods and things in there.
Before joining this committee, I was very pessimistic because Fajar became the vice project officer. I was afraid his bad attitudes would be coming up again just like in Great Deliberation III of Himatif. I also was disappointed that I was chosen to be Secretary not the head of publication and documentation division. Instead Fajar and Senior Indah (the project officer) chose Ihza. Times rolled and Ihza suddenly resigned from his job. Then he was replaced by Rizha, one of publication and documentation staffs. At first Rizha looked so diligent but she really hated to sell foods for making money. Damn! She didn’t know I almost didn’t eat anything for a week because I had to cover the sales income. I felt sorry for Kevin who was the head of funds division. He had to argue with Rizha because of her selfishness. At last Rizha won the argue. She still didn’t want to pay her sales target WTF.
The money we got from the sales and sponsors was more than enough. We had lots of foods and goodies leftover which could be shared for all of the committees. I was so happy today because being part of this committee wasn’t as bad as I thought before.